Support

Lately we have recieved OVERWHELMING support!!! We have formally announced to all of our friends (As if it wasn't obvious already) that we are trying to adopt. We really do appreciate all the prayers!! We are so lucky to have each and every one of you!!!! We have our days when we are really discouraged and I know I can always count on each of you for your kind words of encouragement and prayers! We thank God for each of you!!! On another note, I have officially planned two Welcoming showers! One for each gender! I am very excited for that! For those that really know me they know I am OCD and Love planning!! I'm currently planning my sister in law's wedding right now lol. I am constantly making lists! I'm so ready to update everyone and let you all know that we finally have our little one! But until then please keep us in your prayers!

Common Question

We've been asked a lot about foster care and fostering to adopt. We are not against it by no means and a lot of people ask us because there are lots of children that need good homes. I want to say that we do plan to adopt an older child one day. But (and this may sound a little selfish) with everything we've been through we really want a baby. Which brings me to another question I get what age group are we looking at?  We would really like to adopt a newborn-3month old. The more we think about it the more we want to adopt a child that is already born. That way we don't have to deal with all the emotions so much. The "is she going to want him/her back?" during the days we have to wait for the parental rights to be terminated. We have to worry about that anyways but the more we think about it the easier it might be that way. I read a quote the other day that said "No one said that giving up a child would be easy, but imagine never knowing that child or having that experience. " - anonymous. It really spoke to me and I really think it's something anyone who is unsure about adoption should think about. It isn't easy giving up a child (I had no choice with mine as you know but I know it's different for someone actually giving their child up by choice) No one said it would be. But I'd like for you to imagine never knowing that child at all. Could you do it?  But onto more positive things, we have also been planning baby/welcoming showers (a little early I know) I think my nesting as been in overdrive this week! lol We are so ready to be parents!!! Sorry there's not much of an update here but believe me we cannot wait to announce that we are physically parents!!! Thank you to all who continue to pray for us! We have a new project in the works as well to help with the search and we can't wait to share it!!! So be on the lookout!!!

The Waiting Game

It's been a long journey. Each day seems to be flying by, but our arms are still empty. Today marks 6 months from our last miscarriage. It's been on my mind a lot today, but we've been so focused on networking lately it doesn't hurt as much. Don't get me wrong I still miss all of my angel babies but the pain eases with time. We are staying positive that 2012 will be the year we physically become parents. (WE are already parents in our eyes) We are thankful for each and everyone of you that pray for us and that are so kind! We are so lucky to have not encountered too much drama with our journey. Our journey still continues and we are continuing to pray!!! Sorry there's not much more I can update you with. It's all apart of the waiting game. And those that know me best know that I'm not a very patient person to begin with. So this has been a true test for us, me especially! But keep those prayers coming!! Thanks Everyone!!!

Obsessive?

Lately, it seems as though our lives have been consumed by adoption. And I guess it has. I guess you can say we've been a little obsessive. I belive we have a right to be. To us, adopting a child is priority number 1. So yes I guess thats all we really talk about. I guess it's better than dwelling on the past. Don't get me wrong, not a day goes by that I don't miss our 4 angel babies, but I think if I were to sit and pass blame om myself and others it wouldn't help anything, it wouldn't bring us closer to adding to our family. So I try to stay positive. We have a large support system of friends and family and I'm very grateful for them. I don't have much to say in this post. As far as I know of we aren't very close to adding to our family. That saddens me, but it's a new year and I am praying it will be FAR better than last year!!! Thank you to all my loyal readers, your support and kind words and comments mean so much to me!!! We appreciate each and every one of you!!!!

Christmas Photos 2011

This is hopefully our last Christmas as a family of two!! Our poor furbabies were sick so it's just us this year. Enjoy!!!



Reminiscing

This is kind of a random post. Facebook has a new layout as I'm sure most are aware of. It is now set up to be a scrapbook of your life from birth- when you added facebook and everything since then. My husband and I finally cracked and decided to check it out. The way it is set up is by year. We thought it would be fun to see what events Facebook thought were important. I think we both set up our Facebooks in 2006 and we met in 2008 and married in 2009. It was fun to see how we acted and what we did before we knew each other. But the further we got up the time lines the more nervous I got. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. No matter how long it's been it doesn't hurt any less. I saw our first pregnancy announcement. I think we waited a couple days to announce it on Facebook. Sept. 9, 2009 my husband announced that he was going to be a father. It almost brought me to tears. Even though we aren't physically parents I still remember that day and think of it as the day we became parents. Now you would think I would probably stop there not torture myself anymore but I was curious to see what else would pop up. Luckily we didn't announce anymore of our pregnancies on Facebook because we wanted to wait until after the first trimester. But it really got me to thinking about all those special days when I found out about our little angels. I'm the type of person who keeps everything! (not a hoarder lol only sentimental things) I have almost all of our pregnancy tests from all the pregnancies the proof of pregnancies, ultrasounds, my clomid bottles and the clothing we bought when we got a little over excited. I keep everything in a tote. Just to have. Today has been a strange day. Not really sad but hopeful. It's almost a new year and a new beginning. We have every hope that this will be the year that we meet our bundle of joy! I hope we're right!!

Another Holiday with Empty Arms

Happy (late) Birthday Jesus!!! I know I haven't posted in about a week so I thought I'd take the time out to do so while I'm not busy. (which seems to not be very often) We spent yet another holiday with empty arms. (Well besides our fur babies) It's hard to see my nephew's first Christmas and wonder what if all our babies were still here. We made most of our gifts this year which I think is the best kind of gift! My niece loves any and all things Justin Bieber so she was easy to please. We got my older nephew some cologne and a hat and a video game. And we made our baby nephew a blanket with his name on it. We also made their matching Christmas shirts!

They were a big hit!

We had a good time spending Christmas with our families but we are so happy to be home! We pray next year we will have our little one to share the holidays with!! There's not much of an update with the adoption (sorry to disappoint) but we will hopefully be finishing the nursery soon so I will be posting pics of that and we are also thinking of having pics made of us in the nursery (also known as "waiting" pics. We have chosen all black furniture but we have themes picked out for both genders. But we are very excited to have that completely finshed! We hope everyone will continue to keep us in their prayers and that we find our little one soon!