tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8935176984013797124.post1553167309458569930..comments2013-10-27T19:22:23.699-07:00Comments on Our Journey Through Adoption: Momrmfarisshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14632945494177303582noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8935176984013797124.post-18122188606699541282011-12-15T16:58:47.849-08:002011-12-15T16:58:47.849-08:00I totally agree. I was 16 when I lost my first bab...I totally agree. I was 16 when I lost my first baby, and barely knew what happened, but felt as though a part of me was lost. The second time was harder, because I knew, and I thought no one could understand. The third time was the worst, as I saw in my hands what I had lost, I still have nightmares. I thought this was punishment for something I did wrong, or maybe I was defective as a woman. I gave up on the notion of ever becoming a "mother" and focused on other things... I too helped raise others and always wanted to be a young mom, but just didn't see it happening. I found someone that I thought loved me as much as I loved him, and we decided to have a baby, one day, little did I know that one day was fast approaching. I got pregnant with Monica in October of 2009, and suffered through worries and testing you wouldn't believe. They say only the lucky die young, I think what they mean by this is those they parish before life starts or shortly after, or even before their prime are the lucky ones because they don't have to suffer through the trials and tribulations of this crazy world. I believe my babies are peaceful in heaven, along side God and I will one day get to meet them... I had so many complications and restrictions during my pregnancy with Monica and her birth, I hated it, but wouldn't have missed it for the world, and would do it again just to know the love of a child and give the love of a mother... I guess what I am trying to say, is that sometimes we have to go through hell just to get to experience heavenly feelings... You are a great mom, parent, friend, and all around person, you will make some child so happy one day, just keep your hope up and your head held high... I love you... Rebecca Wrattenbeka.wrattenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10644328884536432686noreply@blogger.com